too soon? idts. yoko na lang siguro magpaka gaga pa sa isang taong hindi marunong magpahalaga
at magmahal. :| no offense to ryl. i won't deny na mahal ko pa sya. pero he made his choice. he left me.
i don't need to cling to that situation para magpaka emo or whatever. i have my own life. i need to move on.
2years ago, we had an affair. we didn't last. pero i swear minahal ko sya. for the last two years weve known
each other. a lot of things happened. may mga naging babae/gf sya. may naging bf din ako. but we still
see each other. sa mga gimmick's & some birthdays of common friends. i took me a year and a half to totally
move on. nakakahiya man sabihin pero that's the truth. hindi kasi ako ipokrita para mag deny o magtago.
actually he know's bout that. kaya siguro masayado nya ako tinake advantage knowing i love him so much.
he just hurts me over and over and over and over and over again . :) stupid much ? yea . nagmahamahal ako e.
the sad part is that he mad a promise which i know are meant to be broken. but still naniwala ako. for the nth time.
he told me na he lost me once, t`was 2years ago. he will never let me go this time. very promising noh? :P
we never expected things to go on that fast. nagmeet lng kami ulit last may 14 2010 at LAX. then baaam.
parang everything started there. everyday na kami magkasama and i guess love took place. on the 7th of july,
we decided to make our relationship official. madaming hadlang. daddy nya. some of my friends, so as his.
pero wala kaming paki. love drunk kami that time eh. addict sa isa't isa kung baga. then he had to go to Ilocos
cuz of some school stuff. i trust him. kaya pinayagan ko. he did made a promise na he will behave. pero hindi
ganun nangyari. something happened bet him and his classmate. w/c is a big part of our break up. i was very
much hurt that time. kasi akala ko ok na. na baka worth it yung 2 years na pagaanatay ko. pero hindi parin e.
pinatalo nya lahat just for one night. i need to accept the fact that we are never gonna work out. like what he said.
masakit man but i need to. all of my friends and family esp my lola got disappointed. it took me one week to finally
realize and say to myself that i already moved on. mabilis ba? siguro my friends and family really is a big factor
or reason for me to be able to do it. but still it hurts me each and every day, but not that much. not like before.
siguro isang rason din ung sakit na pinaramdam nya. ginawa kong dahilan un para makabangon ulit.
but last night i recieved a phone call from him saying sorry bout everything he caused me. i was like wala na un.
then putcha. parang nag back to zero yung pag move on ko. :) nagparamdam ulit e. then he told me na alam ko
naman daw na ako yung mahal nya. tpos this afternoon naka chat ko si ecka. sayin ryl really loves me. it was a good
thing to hear that from him. pero parang hindi naman eh. may mahal bang iniiwan? baka nga siguro it's not
the right time for us to be together. maybe pag graduate na namin. when were both settled and shiit. maybe.
who knows? diba? well only GOD knows. :)
